5 WEEKS

BEEN ABOUT 5 WEEKS NOW ...
since the insurance co CUT ME OFF ... all benefits and medical treatment.
not allowing the tests Hopkins ordered ... nothing.
Here I am ... in pain , in more pain with no help.
Barely walk at times from the back pain ... laying in tears from the neck
shoulder and arm pain ...
and NO HELP ALLOWED.
Just had another doctor tell me , the insurance company wants
me dead.
I agree

Back down the road

Went back down the road yesterday too Hopkins in Baltimore ...
AFTER a long exam by one doctor ...
and a longgggggggggggg wait... another doctor checked me over.
and
the conclusion is that the surgery they just performed on my spine
has made me worse , caused more damage and now
more nerves , the wrong nerves are dying or wasting away.
Now more tests are ordered ...
as I wait
wait to hear ... about help and ahhh understanding.
See about three weeks ago ... the insurance co
cut off my benefits ... said I was ALL BETTER ...
right in the middle of my complaining of more pain
and DYSFUNCTION ... they once again pretend
not to know anything about the botched surgery
or my current condition.
I am an ELECTROCUTION SURVIVOR and should not be
alive ...
sorry I was damaged when 56,000 volts coursed thru my body ...
sorry.
Like last Saturday night when I woke up with my heart beating
less than 30 BPM and feeling too weak to move or get up for help.
I laid there and either went back to sleep or passed out.
Does not matter
the HEART DOCTOR said he would not treat me further
till I passed out from a STANDING position ...
sitting or laying down is OK.
Honest ... he said that

grave

well last night about 7 pm
Really felt like I was laying in my grave... fighting a migraine and praying
for death to release me from the pain.
Took the nasal morphine type crap and proceeded to have
super weird dreams...
anyway
36 hours now with this headache and it still hangs on ...
this has been the worst migraine yet... one of the worst.
Remember one where blood was running out my nose...
that was pretty bad too.

waiting weeks now

waiting weeks now for HOPKINS to call me back ...
evidently they cannot deal with their screw ups ...
will not call me.
the pain is not letting up
15 days of added pain and torture
they lied to me ... bald faced lies.
feels like boiling water was just poured down over my head and neck.
they lied plain n simple
and they will pay for it ...
wait n see.

2 WEEKS AGO ...

Two weeks ago ... the great OZ of medicine ... Johns Hopkins in
Baltimore went in and worked on my spine in my neck.
Funny they waited till minutes before the procedure to WARN ME how dangerous it could be and the possible negative outcomes.
Well last week it was evident that they screwed something up...
MULTIPLE PHONE CALLS TOO DOCTOR ERDEK with no response till
yesterday when one of his lackies called and left a mumbling uncaring message.
THEY CLEARLY DO NOT WANT TO DEAL WITH THEIR SCREW UP.
Feeling more pain daily , waking up from my mini sleep sessions only to feel more
pain than the day before.
now been two weeks and still in pain ... feels like a bad burn down my head and neck and causing deep pain in my back and shoulder and into my already
damaged right arm.
the great HOPKINS MY ASS.
BUTCHERS

survived

survived the operation today at Hopkins
made it home ...
now sitting in pain.
so nothing has changed.

Black Powder Times

been recently brought to my attention
another fight has caused them folks to start yet another
Black Powder Times FORUM ...
this newest one ... has inlines and other MODERN WEAPONS.
Let me assure as the FATHER of the real original BLACK POWDER TIMES FORUM...
inlines were not to be discussed or allowed in any manner shape or form.
THEY have destroyed any hope of keeping the tradition alive...
TRADITIONAL BLACK POWDER is just that...
and they are too stupid to see it.
Rather "give in" to the dark side...
glad , real glad I no longer COUNT THEM AS FRIENDS...
http://blackpowdertime.proboards.com/

last night

last night as I lay my head down to sleep...
the head and neck pain was over whelming.
This after fighting a headache for two days ...
not right at all
Wondering now if these procedures are causing me more pain ...
not less like they were supposed too.

Made it ...

Made it thru last weeks procedure at Hopkins.
VERY PAINFUL and was not expecting that.
I did not cry ...wanted too... but could not with my
face strapped down so tight...
did cry out in pain multiple times.
That was phase one ... next phase takes more time
and requires more precise probing.
WHILE I AM AWAKE ... AND FEELING ALL OF IT.
I did some thinking over the weekend about the EXTREME
actions now being taken to combat the pain of the fatal
accident I survived... actually cutting away parts of my body
so I cannot feel the dysfunction and damage.
shame...
Maybe if I had not be DENIED all medical treatment for over 4 months
post accident... maybe the injuries would not be so bad.
one day they will answer to GOD for their actions ...
stand and deliver the truth.

well folks ...

well folks ... guess there is a slight chance
being cut on tomorrow will do me in ...
might make the ole' heart finally give out or something else
do me in.
Been nice...
not long enough and well ... last 3 years WAY TOO MUCH PAIN.
Really like to hang around awhile longer so I can make
life a living hell for a few certain people.
Thanks to all my friends... and family that have helped...
somebody feed my dog.

Hopkins

... well two more days
and Hopkins will be poking n proddin in my neck around my spinal cord...
first they are going to inject nerves and shut them down for a time ...
then once they locate the ones causing pain
going in with an ELECTRIC KNIFE and severing the nerves ...
guessing if they cannot fix me
going to KILL parts of me to hide the pain.
3 yrs now since my accident and I for one
cannot believe I am still alive ...
or not in JAIL.

so far

http://www.yourpurebredpuppy.com/reviews/louisianacatahoulaleoparddogs.html

so far my new puppy has been a real joy.
Quick to learn and please ... and loves our lil Rat Terror dog.
the princess of the house
Belle Bo' is what I have been calling her... and she loves me.
better when I have food.
so far outside she has stuck close to me with no running off or wandering.
Almost forgot what it was like to have a dog that listened.

noticed

Noticed the ducks were eating more than normal ...
turns out a 20 lb fox squirrel was doing the morning
breakfast buffet thing in their feeding area...
big sucker ... must weigh near 5 lbs.
twice the size of the greys that show up time to time
be the 2 nd time I caught him ...this time mee got pics.

WONDER

Wonder what has happened too Jena... aka JEAN AKA REV JEAN ...
heard he is MIA ... SINCE before xmas.
wonder if the CONDORS got him finally ???
he was once choosen as KING OF THE CONDORS ...
his mom kept him at home , safe.

waiting now ...

waiting now to see what other BULLSHIT will be delayed or caused by this insurance co.
Doctor has a procedure scheduled at JOHNS HOPKINS too HOPEFULLY alleviate some
of this pain I have been living with for almost THREE YEARS...
not going away and greatly reducing the quality of life.
Just got a phone call today
the therapy delayed over THREE MONTHS ... paperwork still has not been
forwarded to the therapy office.
Greed is terrible ... and when they dip their WHIP of denial in it ...
causes some severe pain indeed.
GREED ... nothing less than GREED ...
HOLDING ONTO THEIR BEANS AND COUNTING THEM DAILY.
BEAN COUNTERS...

Trapline

got me a fine knife a coming from JK Handmade knives...
not my first and not my last.
real fine one , kinda modern design but will do old time chores well nuff.

Cupidfish / hunt101

take this warning ...
do not use the online image hosting service CUPID FISH or HUNT 101
been days now as they figure out how to get back up and running...
took their website down to make big wonderful changes ...
and cannot figure out how to make it work.
Contacted their customer service a few times as the problems
continued... and when I told them I was going to have to find a new host...
they email me back a NASTY PACK SAND EMAIL ...
ok no problem...
they make money off the advertising and the pictures we allow them to host.
they are not worth the aggravation as they scratch their asses trying to figure
out how to make the program work ... shame.
maybe they should have stayed in the little kids sandbox

Belle'

Belle the Christmas puppy...

Remington

Careful buying anything made by or wearing the REMINGTON name ...
they do not stand behind any of their LIFETIME WARRANTY.
They treat their customers like they are stupid rednecks ...
not capable of advanced speech or deep thinking.
they also do not return calls
and BLAME the people who MAKE stuff for them ...
under their name.